This is not something I learned to trust, but what remained when trust was no longer needed.
When there was no longer a self to consult, life revealed it had been carrying itself all along.
From there, even direction dissolved into movement.
There is a phase after recognition and integration that leaves little to say.
The questions fall away—not answered, but unnecessary.
Alignment ends where identity ends.
There is no inner checkpoint.
No self to confirm.
No narrative of progress.
Life moves.
Choice chooses itself.
Action happens without rehearsal.
Words arise without self-monitoring.
Trust, as a concept, dissolves—because trust implies uncertainty.
Here, nothing is being trusted.
There is no backup belief.
No spiritual insurance.
No contingency plan.
Life does not require permission to unfold.
The Ordinary Absolute
This phase is not mystical.
It is simple.
Almost disappointingly so.
Life is lived at face value.
Not transcended.
Not interpreted.
Not framed as awakening.
Just lived.
And in that simplicity, something becomes obvious:
Nothing was ever out of place.
There is no arrival here.
No final state.
Only the absence of needing one.
The Arc, Held as One
Recognition — I Walk the Earth as God
Integration — After the Recognition
Trust Without Reference — Nothing Left to Align
No hierarchy.
No ladder.
No conclusion.
Just the gradual disappearance of the one who thought something needed to be held.
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You don’t need to remember who you are.
What you are does not forget.
While all of this is beautifully expressed,. I think alignment is the key to achieving what you write about.
I know for myself, I used to practice a course in miracles, which is very similar to what you write about, until I had an NDE and realized it was splitting me apart. Prior to the NDE, something in me kept telling me something was off and then (after the NDE) I realized it was cognitive dissonance/spiritual bypassing. I realized the only way out of the "off" feeling was to understand alignment. For example, if you truly believe in no hierarchies you won't participate in hierarchies, serve false masters, support polluters etc, or buy from companies who use slave labor or abuse power over others. Why would you? Simply because they aren't real? What this brought up for me was: If they aren't real, why do it at all, why not choose different? The answer: fear. Fear of what? Giving up lifestyle. Giving up what is out of alignment. I then went deeper and deeper under the fears, realizing how dominant they are in our lives and how conditioned we are to never question anything, to never think outside the box, and never even know these fears are there. Then I realized compassion. I wasn't ready to give up those fears, and that was okay but it was important not to split myself or be in denial, because that lead to cognitive dissonance. So, for me, there came the realization of a split between lifestyle, action, and spiritual awareness. And also the difference between knowing something in my mind, in my heart, and in my being.
Maybe this was the reason why the masters, monastics, mystics, and mendicants lived a simple life and lived how they did. I imagine they wanted to live in alignment because the alternative is cognitive dissonance. Maybe they knew more than we do now. Not sure... hope I make sense. This has triggered me to ponder old questions I once asked, but it seems timely for me, so thank you for this.